the trust inside

in case some people might be wondering what the big deal is, why so many people would be upset Over loosing a band member. many people Get upset About losing Band members that they really love but What is it about us that makes it such a monumental thing ? TRUST !!!!

words can barely touch it, but i can do my part to try a little.

the obvious is you could go and always plan on having a good time, people are friendly the vibe is good etc etc

But they lived it until the end of their time, and why not retire in luxury before that, why not do like many of the great musicians Do ?

i can only speak from a patron point of view, and my own personal experience, and opinion.

I believe they experience some magic up on the stage as I do in the crowd. I recently heard a quote from bob saying, ” when he feels the crowd breathing the words” and so I thought ah ha they do know something’s there, they feel it maybe in a different way but they know. Jerry knew. Now I believed Bob knew But was never really sure.

but inside those ratdog shows I felt and experienced much like I did with Jerry being there, still never knowing if the “song” was just my own or did they feel that energy I sent swirling in and around each one of them at a constant flow of a glowing plasma flowing from my being ,eyes always closed yet I could see each of them as if almost above.

I believed it enough based on the words that he chose to sing and the road so lengthy that he continued to walk, giving up so many precious moments of another life that walked beside him and Jerry did the same.

They knew they pulled the ancient threads of Love, they must have felt it at one point at least or every show I don’t know, That we were the glue somehow in Some way Experiencing As i did That we were the balance,That maybe somehow , together with all of our positivity In love And love for all, could very well be holding all of this experiece together ?

and that somehow the thoughts, the feelings, whatever we choose to call it, united us in a way That only a seemingly ancient but yet current and everlasting love Can explain, in a way that only love can speak. through experience ,no words can tell, no eyes can see, and only maybe their ears too could hear that voice in between the lyrics and the music, within the sounds that filled so many spaces that gave me the trust to open up to the experience and let that love come pouring out and pouring in to the all. that first time in Ritchfield and the spectrum ’93. and oh yeah ,it broke like a thunder cloud lol

is it in my conscious,my mind, just another spaced out hippie? I often wonder. But the experience is and will always be and there’s nothing I can do about that. And that They chose these songs, These lyrics, And that they continued Until the end .Then I must believe They knew it too. this unspoken wonder.

And so it gives me a peace inside that they could possibly understand why I will never stop, why we will never stop, no matter what our situation is, that piece, that experience is inside, the knowing that will keep this torch lit through every waking and sleeping hour, through music ,nature and eternity.

we are a part, Maybe we were just part of the experience, but we were the experience none the less. And just like that mountain of music from which the musicians that find it and don’t want to climb down from, our experience is that mountain, the other half,an Infinite Thread That completes The whole.

without all those that continue to climb to get to terrapin from reaching for that gold ring inside , I believe we would be still lost in space, no place left to call home, but because of you,them, I, we , from all corners of this world that follow love ,that inner love, to which mine just happens to be strongly channeled through music and love, greatest thing could ever be, we continue to create love through eternity!

Jerry and Bob held the platform for the muse , the grateful dead. but I believe together, now we , the other ones , will forward triumphantly in this generation.

in hopes for the rise and knowing the music will never stop, I will to move forward, I will to survive, and I will to hope to at least get by we Cassidy , we are it , we are on our own now but never alone! so Bob, I have my ” book of rules” you helped me greatly after Jerry left ,you carried this love , holding true and never stopped !

you bent your ear many times with other musicians ,bands, and genres in both new and different spaces. I always admired you gratefully for that!

they buried you standing Bob ! you were our friend till the end and I love you for that ! your love never faded!

my personal hope is that wolf brothers will continue, don’t worry, we will hear his voice come through the music !!

An American Music Nomad

going to put up the first song that starts on my playlist hitting shuffle now …..and holy %$#& on shuffle two Djinn came on ! I couldn’t make this up if I wanted,could’ve been anything ! an all time favorite of mine!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you Bob !!!!!!!!!! bomb , oh yeah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!